Living in an all-female sober living in Scottsdale has allowed me to not only grow in my recovery but also in my relationships with others. When I first entered the all-female sober living in Arizona I was unable to hold healthy relationships with men or women. You see I feared women and in my spiritually sick mind believes that all women either hated me or wanted something I had. It was through recovery that I was able to acknowledge that women were at the end of the day the people who would ultimately be able to keep me the most accountable. The reason this was a fact was that men were much easier to manipulate into my own self-seeking motives than another woman in recovery. This came as quite a shock at first.
I remember when my sponsor first told me I couldn’t be around men in recovery anymore and needed to reach out to women. At that time I only wanted to be around other sick women, but you know they do say ‘two sickies don’t make a wellie’. The sick women cosigned all my nonsense and allowed me to do all the things I shouldn’t have been doing. At the time this included me gossiping, still telling little “white lies” and doing the bare minimum to get by. Then my sponsor forced me to go to an all-women retreat in Prescott. I had every excuse not to go, but every excuse was countered by a legitimate reason why it was indeed possible. So not only did I go, but that was the weekend that I learned that women were my saving grace in recovery. If it had not been for the woman who was my spiritual guide at that time and forcing me to go I may not be alive today and that makes me so grateful for today.